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How could you let her get so close to you that she could kiss your kneck ?

Today I realised that me and James bond have a lot in common. Well not a lot , one thing. Trust. We both have trust issues. You think you love someone then you remember something they have done / did in the past, then you think hmm how could I love someone who did that to me. I forgive , but never forget . Somewhere, I love you. Somewhere, I hate you.

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I get tired, And upset, And i’m trying to care a little less.

I've started writing this at 1:42 am , this will make a lot of sense lol jk. But I have way to much goin on in my head not to vent it out somewhere.
I've just got off of the phone to Jessica. We had been talking about all sorts but mainly the catastrophe that has hit our group that is partly (a big part) my fault (not intentionly at all). So William I will call him (so random) keeps telling people that I am taking his best friend away from him. Now I'm not gonna lie, I'm kinder really deeply offended by this, if he means this in a joking way or not (as he states). Wanna know the reason why ? Because his bestfriend (my boyfriend) spent time with me for not even 2 hours, also this was one time. Know I would understand if it was a recurring occasion but its not. We have been going out for a month , 16 days of that was spent me being in France and its really the only alone time we have ever got .
So now I'm guessing he proper hates me for practically no reason, causing so many arguments and awkwardness for no reason , he has proper done my nut in . And when all of this is over who's gonna be the hurt one here ... me, ill be boyfriendless and bestfriendless after he makes the 2 people I care about the most choose between us. I don't understand him he has changed so much , I just want the friend that I loved spending time with back and not the selfish-two-faced- backstabbing-little-shit of a boy.

Right one rant over one to go.

J-j-j-j . Ergh . Do one.
You came out of the blue then straight back into it ... then decided that it wasn't good enough in there , oh no, so you came out again. You think we can just pick off where we left off. Well we can't. You disappeared . I delt with that, accepted it . You can't expect me to drop everything and run back to you. I'm not some kinder booty call. If you didn't leave I wouldn't of been in this . I refuse to speak about you , tryna kid myself that your here, its working but I got to let my emotions out somewhere and I guess its on here .

Why dont you be the writer and decide yhe words I say.

Why did you disappear.
Why did you not speak to me for over a month.
Why the fuck do you think its okay just to pop back into my life .
Why today out of all of days.
Why.

Pack a suitcase, wander to the next town.

I haven't been on here for agesss !

Well was france amazing ! I had my days where I wanted to be anywhere but the beautiful Vias, but all in all i had the best hoilday of my life. To be honest I think this is turning out to be the best summer ever.

In France I met some of the best people I know as well as the girls that I love.

Amy Burbage

Emma Burbage

Beth Hutchinson, James Bowater and Emily O'Meara

There were lots of other people incluing: Micheal, Welshies, Vicky, Pia, Tom, Sam, Alex, Sam, Sarah, Freya and the connors.

France 2010, The one to remeber.

The love kickstarts again .

I'm doing this while sitting in my car with my sister and mum and dad . I guess this is it for a couple of weeks . Gonna go to the beautiful vias with the beautiful people. To be honest it should be quite good and I should get a sexy tan . So yer this is goodbye . Love you lots.

The time is right, gonna pack my bag and take that journey down the road.

France tomorrow . It's only really hit me today but for all the wrong reasons. I should be buzzing going on about it every 2 seconds of the day but no , I'm not and I'm not feeling excited at all. Today has been goodbye. Goodbye for a holiday that lasts 2 weeks but for some reason it felt like a proper goodbye for a long time. Today has been teary . If you know me you'd know I don't cry that much if at all but all these emotions and hormones have built up . I sound like such ab ungrateful cow but I guess you can't help the way you feel.

Billy Thomas and Jessica Wharton I'm gonna miss you so much .

Amy and Emma burbage, you better get ready cos here I come .

Now our lives are changing fast,hope that something pure can last.

Oh how times has changed in the pass couple of days. I finally got something that I have wanted for a long long time, longer than people will relise. "I was only a kiss, it was only a kiss", it was only a kiss at a party in January ( yes a long time ago) but ever since then they have always had part of my heart and tbh I think he always will. Enough of my love life...

Good things are happening in the near futre;
Today and tomorrow should be a laugh and France is so close now : D, at times like these I love my life.

This is all for now, pretty sure i'll update again today : )

It's something unpredictable,but in the end it's right. I hope you had the time of your life.

So I guess this is good bye Year 10.
Where do I start with this year ?
I lost a really close friend this year and yer sometimes it still upsets me, but losing her ment I gained 3 of the bestest mates I think I have ever had.
This year began the start of our crazy antics.
Parties = Alcohol

The parties have been wild, I have scars and some of the worst hangovers ever to prove this.

Relationships have started now. This for me has been one of the best and worst parts of year 10. One thing I have realised is never ever ever let a boy take you for a mug.

Mistakes have been my bestfriend. I've certainly had my fair share of these. But I'll tell you one thing these mistakes definatly made me happy at the time.

I hope you had the time of your life, cos I certainly have.

Year 11, good luck , you have a lot to live up to.

Said I would and I'll be leaving one day, before my heart starts to burn.

Okay, so I like you a lot more than I expected. But your so complicated. What am I doing with my life ?

Oh this tune goes out to that chik I just met, at the train station, wiv her skinny jeans on, her little indie pumps.

This is my first blog, so basic things first I think...

It's RIDGEWAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

Maybe i need some rehab or maybe some sleep ?
Sleep sounds good aye ?

<3 Jessica Wharton, Parties, Music, Sun.

So i decided after Jessica persuading me, to give this thing a go, and I finally made time to do it. Jess please appreciate this.

I think my blog is gonna be full of a load of random shit to be quite honest with you, well my whole 2 followers. Can we try to improve that please ? Lets try.